Sorry. I can't save the world.

I just realised today that I cannot save the world. It didn't dawned on me before that I cannot do that until good ol' joe told me. I cannot make another see my point, I cannot change anyone's decisions, I cannot juggle so many other things together. My studies, my business, my friends, my loved ones.

I worry too much, perhaps excessively, for those I love and care for.

I'm sorry i cannot save the world.

Senseless i know.

The most dreaded day...

Every year this day, I am at my lowest point in the year. Not because I am upset that I'm older by yet another year. Just that for one reason or another, something upsetting will happen. This year is no exception. I haven't had a real happy birthday since I was 18th. So sad eh? Not really, on one hand, i'm quite alright with things being this way because perhaps it'll make be a more tolerant person. On the other hand, i do feel annoyed that things turn out this way.

I'm such a contradiction.

Okay, I don't want anyone to say the "happy ...." in the comments because, it is not.